Casting-Day 2

I have to admit that I'm almost shocked at how well Leah is reacting to the cast. She has not once "complained" about it being on. She goes about her business like nothing is different. I'm so impressed with her! Today, was a great day. I saw a lot more focused movements with lefty, especially while playing. She still gravitates into using her right hand, even while casted! For awhile this evening we playing with her pop up toy (you know, the one where there are 5 animals and you push a button or pull a lever and they pop up), she was doing great pushing the animals down after I popped them up. Her movements were very thought out and she loved getting the praise when she closed them! Eating is still very challenging, but I can see small improvements there too. She is trying to grab onto the food and once I place it in her hand she is doing nicely bringing it to her mouth. Overall, I'm happy to say that things are going well. I'd still like to see her a little more aware of her left hand, but either way she is doing great! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today, I've had a lot of time to think about things and I thought a lot about Leah and the cast. I keep having this overwhelmed feeling, this feeling like I want to call Lisa and tell her I want the cast off. For awhile, I couldn't place why I was having these feelings. I mean, Leah is doing great, she is happy and acting herself. She is sleeping well and eating during the day. So, why do I feel overwhelmed?! Well, I came to the realization, that it's not that I want the cast off, in fact it's not really the cast I have a problem with. It's the fact that now, I'm really seeing how far behind Leah is on her left side. I always knew she was behind, I knew things were harder for her, but I can see it all the time right now . It's like it's staring me in the face. This probably sounds stupid, but I can't shake these feelings that I've been lying to myself. How could I think she was actually better then she is? I mean, everyone has told me she is mild, but really is she? I know Leah is doing great things and that she is still so young and mold able. I think this casting process is drawing out some real raw emotions for me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Here's the video of Leah right after she got casted.